Current mood: contemplative
Life appears as something rather confussing upon turning points in your story... I don't think we're ever prepared to face the truth or reality in full force, 'cause just like that we avoid suffering at all costs, even hurting a lot more.
Laura, well, she taught me a lot about life, about death, about living, about enjoying life as you build it for yourself. I don't think I'll ever have such interesting conversations as I did with her, I don't think anyone could understand me any better than she did, and instead of being sad, although I am, I think I should feel happy that that is actually true.
For a long time, I fighted the idea of being just a follower, but then I realized that most of what I am in my professional and personal life, I owe to her. It doesn't feel like a burden, nowadays feels like a privilege.
And thinking on missions and well doings, makes me realize that there won't be anymore "children". We are the only ones, the only thousand, where there could had been more...
Somehow I don't think the next generation would have done anybetter, with or without her, she had left LIFE per se a long time ago.
It makes you wonder how much love you need in your life and how good it does to keep you alive. No matter how loved you are, no matter how good you do, if deep down you don't have what you need, ... I'm sorry to say, that some of our heroes might turn into humans and just like that decide over the only thing that we may have full control of, our deaths.I don't feel that she's truly gone, but more alive than ever, 'cause now we realize that she's in every single one of her thousand daughters and sons.
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