Floating device - Saturday, October 21, 2006

Current mood: content

What do you do when time and distance plays with your fate? When you know that a future is made up of decisions, how do you make it so that each one of them is the right one, to build that path that fulfills your dreams and ultimately makes you happy. There are so many options, you take roads every day, they seem insignificant, but even ordering in modifies your life… everything is made out of choices.
This game, life, seems so complicated contemplating the path you have already strolled, sometimes marveling you with all your achievements, sometimes just making you sad with the little list of things you hold under your belt.
Nowadays even being alive is an achievement.
I've lived my life, so far, riding the wave. Making adjustments as I float, just to be able to stay above the water; sometimes I swim in one direction, the one I think the shore is at, and either a wave pushes me back to beginning or that shore that seemed near, was just a spell.
It's true, you do learn from those bad decisions, from those bad roads you walk, from that huge wave you couldn't climb, but it rattles you, shakes you, plays with you, and for a second you feel as if there's no air in your lungs, …a bad decision feels like that. Plays with your fate.
But you eventually should learn how to surf.
I found a table the other day, figure speech that is, and if you're still reading this blog, and coping with my nonsense, I have to tell you, I like my new table. It's an exciting one, that has given me some leverage.
Unfortunately, this table of mine is far away, and I have to imagine brand new ways to see this table, to get to know it, to learn from it, to get it to know me and make my life different in this sea. Sometimes, I just hurt over the fact that this table is just so far… I lose my floating level a little.
If this distance that keeps me apart from this table is so constant, could it be a spell? It might be a spell, another shore I swam at and disappeared in front of my eyes… I just don't want it to disappear… I want it to help me and to teach me how to float over this sea and forget about the time and distance that plays with our fate every day.
I'm happy floating as it is… right now the sea is calm and kind…