El Que No Llora, No Mama

My mom has this saying, and its not exclusive to her, its a part of our culture. Venezuelan culture, that is.

It means: the baby that doesn't cry (or asks) won't eat.

It basically cements the culture I grew up in. If you don't ask for something, or look for something, what are the odds of you getting it? And this, I know, is not strange to any other culture, is a fact of living as a being in this planet, how to get by, how to survive.

In that regard, I am one of the most timid people when it comes to asking for something I put a lot of value on. I can go out on a limb and ask for small favors, those that are kind of not personal, those that most of the time involve lending me money, let me borrow your truck, come and help me move, read this for me, listen to my ramblings... as it is, you reading this blog is a favor that I'm asking you right now.

But when it comes to things where my feelings are involved, my work depends on it, that there's a chance I might get hurt, that I'm asking for a favor where I'm trusting you with something very dear to me, then things get interesting.

I just recently put off asking for something for 4 months. Full 4 months... only because I couldn't figure out if what I was doing was right. For one, its all about timing, and then there's the whole fact that being so important, you don't want to be rejected.

When it comes to these kind of favors, thinking about them makes me queasy, my stomach feels like I ate 3 nets full of butterflies and that I might bounce of the walls out of anxiety.

Realizing that if you don't ask the universe for what you need, you won't ever get it, its one of the most important things I might learn in this life time. Learning that's alright to win some and lose some might be the next thing I have to learn.

Re-reading my last blog I realize that's exactly what I did... And the universe responded... and the moon its starting to make waves. Cry a little, beg a little... at the end it might turn out you actually never needed to beg but just to let someone know that you were hungry.